Disappointment

Well, I didn't get into that certain graduate program.

My initial feeling when I read the news: nothing. I didn't feel anything, good or bad. Then about ten minutes later after reading the rejection letter for the third time the sadness hit. A sharp sadness and feeling of rejection. Now, a day later, it is just a subtle sadness and hopelessness. I was expecting a sense of relief, hoping whatever feeling that came would be better than the anxiousness. Not necessarily the case. I hope the relief will come in a couple of days once the sadness goes away.